004. Hadiah 28 Ramadhan.

Tatkala diuji dengan nikmat, seringkali aku bertanya sendiri, 

"Sudahkah aku menjadi hambaNya yang bersyukur?"

Dikala ujian berbentuk kesedihan atau kedukaan menimpa, aku bertanya lagi, lalu membuat konklusi,

"Aku masih tidak bersyukur."

Adakah aku jauh dari sifat bersyukur, atau, mungkin kesyukuran itu berkala? Naudzubillah. 

Malam ini malam ke 29 dalam bulan Ramadhan 1436H. 

Aku bersyukur kerana masih dipertemukan dengan Ramadhan untuk kali ke dua puluh lima dalam hidup aku. 

Tapi cukupkah sekadar bersyukur?

Siang tadi, aku menemukan ini,

Masihkah aku tidak bersyukur?

Allah, ampuni dosaku. 




Hamba Pendosa,

Anis.

003. Harapan.

Bismillah.

***

Kita akan terus diuji dengan perkara yang kita masih 'lemah' tentangnya. Si kaya takkan diuji dengan ringgit melimpah. Si popular takkan diuji dengan galaknya 'limelight' keatasnya. 

Yang tak sabar, akan terus diuji dengan waktu. Kesabaran. 

Harapan.


xx

Anis.

002. Of kurma and bargain.

Bismillah.

So last month, I planned to buy 'kurma' or dates, for my ibu. She has been an istiqomah (steadfast) kurma eater, every morning to start her day. Another plan was to reserve some for my research purpose. Since my upcoming (insyaAllah) Master project will be on dates and goat's milk (Prophetic's foods).

But since I reset my mobile, I missed out to save this guy's number whom I bought about 10 kilos of kurma last year. So I did posted and 'blast' to every (chosen) Whatsapp groups to seek help from my colleagues. None of them replied initially, then someone PM-ed me and told me that he could helped me and offer to ask anybody he knows regarding dates.

I was happy, though I have expected this same person to help me, as always. ddd
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This same person also offered to deliver this kurma right to my place. And the amount for 5 kilos of (good) dates stated RM115. But then again he assured me that the price offer will be cheaper since I am going to use it for my research. 

Then the time arrived. We met at a mosque nearby Bangi, and he handed me my kurma. Then he asked about my research and I told him briefly. The time to pay. Okay, so I asked him how much is the price.

So he answered, "Ikut la nak bayar berapa."

I was not convinced with his answer. I probably paid RM5 to kid my friend, but obviously I cannot do that to him. Heh.

Then I asked him again. He looked 'restless'. Finally he said, "Ok berapa harga sebenar? RM115."

To my acknowledge, I only got RM111 in my purse! And I still have gut to ask him the REAL price??

Then I stuck. Actually I just want to pay lower than the price itself, as he mentioned them before. But maybe ego took over, I bargained. There you go, he ask for the real price.

I should have just paid him, or tell him that I am having less at that moment.

So that was my story. I learnt from him that not every people has the ability and the gut to bargain. We can't demand too much from people. 

When people do kind, let's just accept it. Embrace. Appreciate. And do not forget to be grateful too.

I learnt a lot from him. As always. Allah has His own plans for me. 

And for people whom I meet.

Alhamdulillah.


xoxo

Anis.

001. New Journey.

Bismillah..

I was so overwhelmed with my previous blog, revealed by some of my new colleagues in my new working place. After all, blog is a new-way to write, like a visual diary. So here it goes, I made a remake. I think I need it too, though. Since I stepped into the new 'world' of working, I left UIAM, and insyaAllah will pursuing my postgraduate study this upcoming September, so life has changed, a bit. Alhamdulillah.

Seeking His infinite bless has been my favorite place to hide, previously. A so-called secret place for me to hid from the noise of this world, especially the social media 'world'. But I do think I need to move on a bit - to be a stronger, matured young lady (ehems). insyaAllah.

Why manifesto?

I am not sure. Frankly speaking, yes, I am not that ambitious to jot down my own manifesto or publish them during my own election. Yes, I was once inspired enough to take part in any campus election, but then again, it was better for me not to enter any. Alhamdulillah. It is simply because the word 'manifesto' came across my mind while I need to enter the blog name and title (!).

Barely an opinion, goals of myself - that (I hope) can benefits others too. I am too optimist that I could share something through my finding of my daily life (and routines). I hope I can share something for my future generation, well, with my lovely children (insyaAllah!).

;-)

Voyage?

Voyage is 'journey' in French. I faithfully stays in love with French thingies since my school hey-day. But tarbiyyah (Allah. Finally.) has changed my view on it. Let every entry posted here will eventually lead us to Allah. To Him.

InsyaAllah.

Ramadhan Kareem. Allahu Akram!

Anis.

11 Ramadhan 1436H.